This is my heaven….. And i wish it wasn’t.
Today I have started to take the first steps in dealing with this. I have lived as an emotional eater for some time now. I guess there are a few people out there who know that I binge, but for most I try to hide it.
I’m ashamed of what and how much I eat. I sit there stuffing my face thinking that it will make everything better, but I know deep down it won’t. Sugar is my fix my heaven. Any form or shape. But cupcakes are my heaven, my safe place.
What I want it to fix I’m unsure of exactly. I think it is me, and how I think of myself. I have hidden myself away from most, and I avoid making new friends like the plague. I’ve even let myself drift away from my closest friends.
How I’m going to fix this I don’t quite know. But I’ve taken the first step so there is no looking back now.
Hi I’m Beck. I’m a mummy, a wife, a blogger and a part time worker. I blog at The Rambling Mummy about our everyday life. I’m a wife to Ryan and Mummy to 2 beautiful Kids. I’m yet to find the right balancing act for everything but love writing about it along the way. You can find me on Facebook, Twitter or my Blog.
I hear you, not so much on the cupcake front, but I was eating crap and daily. I’m on a 90 health kick as we speak and this weekend marks 4 weeks. 4 weeks of no chocolate, no hot chips, no potato chips. I’ve fallen off the horse once and had macca’s whilst travelling. But I can’t believe I’m not doing that any more when I battled with those demons for all of last year. YOU CAN DO THIS. goodluck.
Thanks heaps mandy, it is a battle I have fought long and hard with.
I still have the odd day where I fall off the wagon but I’m getting there. i think putting it out there was the hardest part.
good Luck with you health kick